2018 – Looking Back

I sit here… Looking out at this beautiful view that God created just for me… And I am overwhelmed at His love for us.  2018 was a year we declared as Growth and Healing.  A year we were spending to recover from the hell of 2016 and 2017.

We needed the entire year to recover.

It was just a year ago this month that we sat at the table and listed out the things we wanted to accomplish and the path we felt God was wanting us to be on.   God showed us through the prior years that things were never a given.  That while we fully trusted in Christ, we learned that back up plans, to everyday life, were needed, because Satan existed.

Evil is real…. That is what 2016 and 2017 showed us clearly!

We truly needed ALL of 2018 to recover.

Recover we did!

We took classes and built our knowledge on where we felt God was leading us in the future.  We stayed close to home and grew even stronger in our love… and we learned to laugh again.  That belly roll laughter that only comes when you truly feel joy in your soul.

We laughed….

We loved…

We cherished the year….

We cherished each other….

But 2018 is done…

The chapter is closed and 2019 is sitting at the doorstep asking to come in… and I am sitting inside… looking out this window… at the beautiful scenery and tears running down my face… I am in awe…. Whispering… I am ready God…. I am ready!!!!


Ready for whatever He sends to me… Ready for life again.. I am built up.. I can do this life again!  I know who I am again… And I love!!!!

What a difference a year can bring.  When you sit back and allow God to bring you the healing you need… when you lean upon Him, the one who heals… and protects and you cast your cares on Him and allow Him to be the healer and fighter for your issues… When you pick up that shovel and dig out the decay in the areas that he leads you to… You don’t hurry the process… You grow weary… you remind yourself… the entire year is yours… you don’t beat yourself up because you just took 2 steps backwards.. you retreat back into the safety of your Father’s arms and rest assured that He will pick you up again.. that He delights in the fact you even put your shoes on this morning… He will hold your hand and kiss your forehead till you are ready to lace up those sneakers once again and head out to try…. Try again… and again.. and again… till you come home and fall on your knees… thanking Him for not giving up on you…. Till you come home with the smile on your face that you did it… again… you made it.. only this time was better than the first.. and better then the last….  And you fall in love with Yahweh even more.. because He believed in you… He knew you could.. if only you just leaned on Him…

Life isn’t about the damage… it’s about the healing… It’s about allowing Christ to come into the crevices of your life and transform ever scratch, every crack, every rip into a beautiful masterpiece!

2018 was the year we walked around chanting “It didn’t have to be this way” and it slowly turned into…  “We wouldn’t change what happened for anything in the world.”

2019 is the year we take the knowledge we gained and use it for Good!!!  For God!!!



Published by thebettencourts

Jesus lover. Wife. Mother. Writer. Homesteader. Permaculturist. Do'er of the odd things as I take you on my daily journey's of what I find beautiful. If you are reading this... I am treating you as a dear friend. Or one of our beautiful daughters. Life is worth fighting for and excelling in. Never give up!

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